The Update Of A Human's Life

Christmas!

2009-12-28T23:08:00.000-08:00

time flies i remember the day when i was blogging about mum arriving and how awesome is it to have mum and dad be your side!! they just left to new york and then back to malaysia. The leaving part was a very difficult part for me cause i was getting all used to having parents do everything for me and now it's back to the square one me being all alone! i hate this life of mine, i hate being here, i'm not happy here! Can anybody hear me??

I got a cap rack to keep all my caps!! i have a total of 12 caps all diff color! wohooo, i want a pink one but jane said it's would be really gay!! haahaha, i was suppose to get a job but looks like 6 classes and with really tight schedule wont work for me!

as days pass i'm starting to love u more and more! u mean the world to me and i really want you by my side love you always and miss you!!

WHERE DREAM COME'S TRUE

2009-12-16T17:28:00.000-08:00

I just got back from DISNEY WORLD, Orlando. I would much enjoy disney if i was 9 or 10 but right now i dont really enjoy the place, i enjoy more shopping in outlet!! hahaha shopping makes me happy!! call me a girl for all i care. I love how Disney have their wonderful fireworks on a daily basis and the wonderful castle!! How i wish i could stay there and wake up every morning and see little kids getting con by disney character thinking mouse can really talk!!

i miss talking to u the day apart, i wish i could spend the time watching fireworks with u, want u to know that u mean the whole world to me and i miss you! things u say that put me in deep thought, sometimes things are just the way they are!! i miss you!!

leaving for memphis in 1 day time den L.A!

current obsession:HURLEY!!! HURLEY!! and HURLEY!! DOLCE!!

DONE

2009-12-07T21:59:00.000-08:00

I'm glad that finals are over!! gosh such extreme stress for the pass few days, staying awake trying to figure out what the numbnut was always saying in class! finally the hardwork pays off. I think i will do pretty well in this final! anyway i'm off to orlando on thursday, got a date with minnie mouse and daisy duck!

the worries of u getting back with your ex is really killing me, isit so difficult to let things go and start fresh? every day i wake up having my finger cross that u moved on! u wont have the talk with me! u wont let me know what you are thinking! u come to me when u are down and when u need help, u tell me u like me but u ignore me! wth? what are u thinking?? i miss you a lot.

Blackfriday

2009-11-28T18:18:00.000-08:00

Blackfriday is really BLACK FRIDAY!! i did not enjoy my thanksgiving neither did i enjoy my blackfriday shopping!! i feel like everything is crashing down on me now! for the pass few days i've been sleeping on the couch cause all my family member here came and spend thanksgiving together. I always think whether in the future if i'm not able to make as much money as my dad will i be able to survive??

3 more classes and i'm done for the semester and here comes the final!! i really dunno how life will be in the future or even in the next month! i can't predict where i will be!! i can't tell what i will be doing! but i know that whatever is planned out for me i will try my very best to enjoy it and live it to the max!!

IMISSYOU

YOU

2009-11-21T18:18:00.000-08:00

I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!

can't u just do this?

2009-11-21T00:14:00.000-08:00

as day pass i only think what would it be like if i did not choose this path and took another path?? mum and all the aunt is going to san antonio on sunday till wednesday, thursday is thanksgiving and then thursday night will be blackfriday!! woot let's go camp out side best buy and grab whatever is worth buying!! I'm gng to orlando for christmas!! DISNEY WORLD!! i want to watch atlease one of orlando home game, will see whether i would be able to get tickets! DWIGH HOWARD.

Wass watching the atlanta vs rockets, home game to atlanta! awesome game! despite the lost they still played bloody well the new rookie buddinger did an awesome job!!

IMISSYOU!!

what can a teenager ask

2009-11-17T19:03:00.000-08:00

i'm just so sick of all this crap i have to put up with! college is freaking retarded and i'm bloody sick of this! i've so much on my mind i'm about to blow out and die! every night i will sleep at 8ish and wake up at about 1-2 and wont be able to sleep again! this sleeping routine is fucking pissing me off so bad!!!
decision dangling in the mist of nowhere! can anybody tell me what i need to do or what i dont need to do???fucking decision's are so hard to make! i always depend on a coin to make my most decision but some decision are too tooo bloody big to be decided by a flip of a coin!

mummy's boy

2009-11-13T21:57:00.000-08:00

mum is here and i have assignment due! what a nice timing, mum being here making me feel like gng back to study! i miss those homely environment and the feeling i have right now really suck. I'm actually putting gng back to malaysia into consideration!! all this homely feeling makes me regret coming abroad to study in the first place!! if this homely feeling goes away and i decide to stay back here then i will be moving to santa monica!! let's go surfing and diving everyday!! wohooo.. another brand new life another new chapter of life???

i want sisha!!! grr....

why are people becoming more and more weird??

2009-11-05T20:53:00.000-08:00

so much crazy stuff been popping up on the news! woman that call the cops because her bf did not want to marry her! woman allergic to husband's sperm! soon we are gng to see on news saying my neighbor was an alien all this while!
There was a shoot out in FORD HOOD, an hour drive from dallas! i was wondering what if the suspect decided to run to a big city and kill everybody??? wohooo the nearest city he could go is austin or dallas! EMERGENCY LOCKDOWN IN DALLAS MAJOR CITY! and i was stranded in a mall and the suspect run in the mall and start shooting all the windows wink wink" free stuff"shoot gucci's window first!! dream on joshua!!

i WANT A CUSTOM MAKE NIKE AIRFORCE DESIGN BY MARK SMITH CALL THE FUKIJAMA'S! it's 1400 dollars!! wtf wtf should i save up and get it??

thanksgiving come quickly!! i want to go on a trip!! end of december my fate of studies will be known!! cali???

ILOVE CALIFORNIA!!

GONE

2009-11-01T22:23:00.000-08:00

another week just passed, this week was pretty awesome had fun partying like a rock star!! Mum is coming down in a week, been pretty busy the whole week! Love my blackberry so Bloody Much. I watched Paranormal activity over the weekend i was freaked out i was not able to sleep till like 5 am and but i had an hour extra sleep cause it's DAY LIGHT SAVING. semester is coming to an end real soon my destination of my remaining years here are still the mist of negotiation!

I LOVE THE NEW LEXUS! LOOK SO PIMPING!! will just wait till dad come here maybe he will be soft hearted and not being money minded and buy me the darn car!! hahahah i doubt he will do that thou!

ANOTHER WEEK IS HERE! ANOTHER WEEK CLOSER TO THANKSGIVING AND CHRISTMAS!!

ILOVEWINTERHOLIDAYS!!!

I LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS I LOVE THE REST OF THE STUFF LISTED ABOVE!! THE LOVE I HAVE WITH YOU IS FOREVER AND NOT SOMETHING THAT IS BEING THROW AROUND!! MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU!!!

blogging from my blackberry!!

2009-10-26T22:23:00.000-07:00

The art of technology!I can blog from my phone! Can send unlimited global text,and also I can be online 24-7 even when I'm on the road anywhere in the world!! How awesome can technology be!MY 3rd WIFE quickly get your blackberry!mummy is cmng to the states in 2 weeks time!! Excited.

I am having so much on my mind!I dunno whether I should stay back here for after this semester or should I move to L.A??should I stay here and move in with my friends to a crappy pathetic yet awesome apartment??

I love you a lot and really want to be with you! I hope u can understand how I really feel for you!

IMISSYOUandILOVEYOU
ALOT

just another weird friday

2009-10-23T18:53:00.000-07:00

Most friday i would normally be out partying or i will be in cali or i will be busy rushing for assignment, but but but this friday i'm seating at home doing nothing absolutely nothing! was suppose to go to "fire wheel" today but it was too cold so i decided to sleep in. Tomorrow is DJ TIESTO i was suppose to go but i always am to lazy to go and get tickets, so i'm not gng and my other friends are going!! meaning another boring saturday night! gosh 2 nights in a row doing nothing!
Where are u? why aren't u online?? i am already missing you badly even though we haven talk for 2 days but still u were the person who motivated me and make my day!!!

should i get SAMSUNG CODE or BLACKBERRY??
should i go for Taylor Swift concert??
When is the right time for me to move to cali??

2 years later

2009-10-20T17:48:00.000-07:00

it was 2 years ago today, i was driving back from KL and i smash 2 car worst accident! i was so worried i killed someone or something. i was high not drunk and did not had my driving license! 2 years years later i look back and wonder can i get anymore stupid then this!my past was not something i should be proud of, my parents actually put up with a lot of my nonsense! how did i ever end up doing all this stuff? was i that rebellious of a kid? time flies 2 years later i finally have some sense to make use of my life or maybe i think i'm making use of my life!life is not for us to take it for granted u never when u are going to die, u never know when you are going to fall sick! I did not know 2 years later i would come to my sense and do something out of my life!

currently listening to :NELL *KOREAN BAND*

w/o technology, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

2009-10-18T21:50:00.000-07:00

3 day's without technology and it sucks so bad!! people in this century will die without technology! technology plays a big part of everybody's life! i was in in OC since friday for camping expedition with friends and had totally no access to internet at all! forgotten american wireless connection does not cover jungle and forest! so instead of being glued to technology like every weekend! we actually took the weekend to enjoy mother nature and smell fresh air.

Today is mummy's birthday and i have to say this! MUMMY THANK YOU FOR BRING ME UP, THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME ALL THIS YEAR I LOVE YOU MUMMY!

where is my doctor?? really went climbing in MOUNT KINABALU???

back to normal????

2009-10-15T19:02:00.000-07:00

so many things happened over the week, i learn something in life is that failure or avoiding is never the best solution! anyway assignment are due on monday and i'm going out of town tomorrow till sunday! another road trip. My uncle is on his way back from Malaysia with my TEH TARIK!! wohoo i miss teh tarik, anyway yesterday the SUN RECORDS, if u guys never heard of them they are a independent record label who founded and produce ELVIS 1st album and on the first day of sales made 300,000. that was a lot back in the stone age! yah so they came and talk to us about how a small independent record label like them that still survive in today's world! was really not interested in what they were saying cause i was still unhappy over what i screwed up!!

i've been going thru so much this week and only talked to my "DOCTOR" about it! and "DOCTOR" really motivated me and cheer me up!! wohooo! "DOCTOR" make me laugh when i talk to "DOCTOR"! thank you "DOCTOR"

Love the song: DOWN by jay sean
Craving for: Maggie Mee
Still obsess with: BAPE

AND

STILL LOVE YOU!!

i feel like crap

2009-10-12T19:22:00.000-07:00

i had that interview today and i screwed it! i was nervous totally fucking nervous! FUCK!! i try so hard and yet i fail again! is this sign of me to stop studying this and maybe go back to studying business? wtf should i do? I FEEL LIKE SHIT! I FEEL LIKE CRAP! WHERE ARE U WHEN I NEED YOU THE MOST?MOST LIKELY OUT TRYING TO GET YR EX-BF BACK??GOOD!! I KNEW U WERE LIKE THIS ALL THE WHILE! FUCK YOU AND YOUR EX-BF! FUCK EVERYTHING!

More than just friends??!?!?

2009-10-11T17:04:00.001-07:00

what should i even do? u can't let go your previous relationship, u can't move on! i'm suppose to be there with u till u decide to go back to him? what am i? a football, kick me away when u don't want, keep me when u feel like it? endless talk with u about this and u always say u don't know! i have so much on my mind! 2morrow is the big interview day suppose to write a song for them and i haven even written a song yet! gosh, few more weeks till we college is done! either i move or i stay i can't decide. Why can't i just stay in 1 place and finish what i'm suppose to do?? am i that flicker minded? I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO DO??

CONTINUE WITH BUSINESS ENTERTAINMENT SURVEY or WHAT??

SANTA MONICA or LOS ANGELES??

Being all alone?

2009-10-09T18:41:00.000-07:00

Gosh do i have to feel like this again! Day pass and i'm falling for you more and more, told myself not to get myself into all this but seem's like feeling is obviously taking charge of me now. i always wonder whether i am better of alone or being with u? And it's clear to me that everything will change, it's the matter of time! I never meant to be here and I think you should know. Common sense speaking how could i expect something like this to last even for a month even if we try!

One week of danger!!!

2009-10-07T20:04:00.000-07:00

My lecture came to class today and separated us into group, and he goes this group u are having an interview with deaf jam records, pointing at my group and said u guys have an interview with universal records and the last group sony bmg! everyone in the class was like holly crap another slave experience but i was pretty excited, Maybe asians just enjoy being slaves??? hahahaha the crappy part about this interview is that there is 8 student in a group only 4 will get the 2 week interview, so what about the remanding 4??

Latest obsession of video game: NBA 2K10
Food Craving:Original malaysian prawn mee

Farming

2009-10-05T20:43:00.000-07:00

Lately half of my friends are addicted, no addicted is such a light word let's say obsess with the facebook game "FARMVILLE" gosh it look's like half of my friend might end up being a farmer in the future! LoL, back to college after a nice weekend break! time flies so fast it's already the 7 week of of college, 7 weeks more till semester ends! and 3 more weeks till mum is coming to town! meaning SHOPPING!!!

Joshua curent obsession: NO it's not Farmville! it's BAPE! yes the monkey on the shirt which cost 100 over dollars

Joshua favorite quote of the day/week:

josh says: (8:31:11 PM)

busy doing what?

anonymous. says: (8:31:17 PM)

farming?

When the plane take off

2009-10-04T19:58:00.000-07:00

Fluffy white cloud floating outside the window, every time when i fly i get really emo or either really excited! Obviously going there is so exciting and coming back is the emo part! i always wonder what is it like to be floating together with the clouds, it would be my dream to be standing on the cloud. Will we ever be able to stand on clouds?? like how cartoon angel's does it?? today in the airport i heard the announcement saying" LAST CALL FOR FLIGHT NUMBER *SOME RANDOM NUMBER* TO MALAYSIA!! gosh how i wish i could just hop on the plane and fly back! AIRPORTS MAKE ME EMO AND HAPPY!!!

welcome back to an extinct part of my life

2009-09-30T17:18:00.000-07:00

Haven been blogging since forever, decided to continue blogging because my grandma has Alzheimer and the chances of me getting is 85% . I was watching this documentary about writing diaries and helping u remember crap!So, diaries are for girls and blogging are for "some special guys" That is why i decided to blog again. When my last post was written i was on the other side of the world call "MALAYSIA" and now on the other side of the world call "AMERICA"!! College has been stressful much work to be done, still job hunting since my last job was a total ripped off. I'm currently out of the dating and "we're just friends but erm..spend the night?" scene. No one whom i need to call to report on every single move i make.

will blog again real soon trust me i'll stick with blogging anytime! hopefully this helps me remember in the future! Hopefully i'll remember my gender when i'm old